I’m Not Faking Being Ill, I’m Faking Being Well

You see me smiling
And think I am okay
You see me out and about
I look like I’m having fun

You see me working hard
I look like a normal person
You see me socialising
And think there can’t be anything wrong

But what you don’t see
When I get home I’m exhausted
I have no energy to do anything else
So I rest the evening away

I cry when I’m by myself
The pain and fatigue get too much
I force myself to act fine while I’m out
And it causes even more pain

On my days off I do nothing
Or I do some small things
I make it sound like I’m doing lots
When I’ve only been able to do a little

I just want to live a normal life
But I can only do it in small doses
Before my body and mind give up
And I am forced to rest

If you look beyond the smile
You will see the pain in my eyes
I’m not faking being ill
I’m faking being well

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6 comments

  1. My mum has fibro and I marvel at how she manages to be there for her family and spend time with her grandchildren, smiling through the pain and resting when she needs to. Thanks for sharing your experience so eloquently.

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